A little background:
When I started this blog a little over 2 years ago, I was creating from a place of unresolved trauma. I lost A LOT in a very short amount of time…
I lost love, friendships, a job and family matters became surreal. I was betrayed, rejected, lost and humiliated. Quite honestly, I felt worthless and I began isolating myself.
I woke up to a new world that felt extremely foreign and lonely. I didn’t want to face the debris and vacancy of the new world I was thrown into… I wanted to go back to my old reality even though I knew it was crushing me.
During this time, I wrote privately, meditated and read books every single day. I was searching for answers as to why this was happening to me. I couldn’t see this at the time but it wasn’t happening to me, it was happening for me. My new/ unfamiliar world was mine to rebuild and create. I now truly understand how intimate, raw and powerful that growth period was for me.
When I was in my rock bottom I remember thinking that I would never willingly put myself through this ever again. But that’s changed… a lot has changed since then. I would go through every betrayal, rejection and humiliation that shattered me if that means finding my resilience, passions and the purpose I have today.
This blog has been my retreat, release and greatest source of happiness. The majority of this blog has been me expanding my own awareness, making sense of my own thoughts, emotions and experiences… It’s held me to a higher standard; one where I have to hold myself accountable in practicing what I preach, and for that I am extremely grateful for and humbled by.
I just wish I had insight and support from someone who has walked a similar path… That’s what I hope this article will be for you today.
Here are the things I wish I was made aware of before starting a blog:
Social media causes anxiety
We fear the unknown. Sharing your gifts, especially during the early stages is a very scary thing. We don’t know how it’s going to be received, if we will have supporters, if we can make a living doing so, etc… trust me, I GET IT. We are walking up to a stage that might as well be a cliff we are about to free fall off of.
But this I know for certain… anxiety stemming from social media is self-inflicted and self-induced. WE are the ones creating our own fear and self-sabotaging dialogue.
This is literally the picture that pops up in my headspace anytime I find myself getting anxious, worried or envious over something I see someone else sharing/ pursuing on social media:
Things I wish I knew before becoming a content creator — SELF CARE EVERY DAMN DAY is written by Stephanie Daily for www.selfcareeverydamnday.com